lonelyWhy am I single? I really don't know, maybe I just expect to much. Maybe I really just think I deserve more then I should. Maybe I am really a jerk because I am looking for a girl that is perfect to me... When I say that I mean perfect in the sense that I have in my mind, not in the way that society portrays perfect. I have never once picked up on a girl... Never asked a girl to dance (at least one I didn't already know)... Never just allowed myself to get shot down in public... Although some of my friends would probably no agree, I'm very shy... I don't like groups, I am not big on being in public places where a lot of people are. I am more of a couple close friends kinda person. I like to spend time alone by myself... Now don't take that wrong I love going out, and I am much more into the whole group thing compare to how I used to be, but personally it doesn't do much for me... I have learned in my years that 50% of the people you meet are fake and not worth your time. At the same time I have met great people every now and then. But when it comes to meeting a girl it just is difficult, I either see them as someone that I feel is not approachable (as in they look like they would never date me), or I'm not at all attracted to them... It's really ironic how I think, I think I am a great catch, I have a great job, a car, I'm able to show my emotions, I think that although I could lose some weight I'm attractive, I come from a loving family, I know how to make a woman happy... (in more ways then one...heh), I am stable, and I have a great sense of humor; BUT whenever I see a girl that I think is cute I always think that she would never be interested in me. And since I never get picked up on when I go out, that just reinforces the way I feel... Just once I would like to have someone hit on me. Someone I was actually attracted to physically... And believe me I am physically attracted to a majority of women, I'm not that picky in that sense... I just read everything I wrote and I seem to be babbling about things... Oh well whoever reads this enjoy it...
I think it's bed time...
But before that I wanted to share another woman that I just think is amazing. Emma Caulfield from Buffy the Vampire Slayer is amazing... And I also have to add that the glasses she has in the second picture are great. I don't know what it is about glasses like those on some women, but her and Lisa Loeb can pull it off and do it amazingly well...
I will post another CD I own tomorrow... I need more friends to read this, I only have 4 people that read this... oh well...
current music: High on a Riverbed - Toad The Wet Sprocket
