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pessimisticTopic of the night...
Optimism. I've always been one of those people that is an optimism on the outside but completely pessimistic on the inside. I start with high hopes about things and they slowly deteriate to. I tend to be a worrier. I start to think about things to much and it brings me down. I'm not like that all the time but when I'm unsure about things I tend to worry a lot. Like with the girl I've been seeing/dating/whatever it is right now. I think I bring on half the problems I've had with the relationship myself because I worry and think about things to much.
I'm trying to stay more optimistic. Even though I'm not presently optimistic I know if I see this through and wait it out that things will work out eventually. It's just I'm impatient because things were going so good and then we basically hit a brick wall and everything went to a standstill.
What a way to talk about optimism...
Anyway things are ok. I'm ok. Had a good weekend. Played 1 hour of raquetball on Friday, called her and gave to see how she was doing because she was upset about something the night before I just wanted to let her know that no matter what's going on between us on any other level that I'm always there for her as a friend first and that I hoped she knows she can talk to me if she's feelling down or just needs a friend. I kept it short since she was driving one her children back from the doctors. Then I went over to my moms work and visited. We talked about this grant that I helped them get and about how we are going to implement the computers they are getting from it. Should work out pretty well. Then I went out to Sushi for
snuffyfur. dipster and neonster and of course snuffs wife jennfurr was there and the twins. Then I went to the movies with my cousin and saw S.W.A.T. I liked it. It was entertaining and action packed.
On Saturday I picked up Madden 2004 fromfreshtastic73 and then went over to my friend Glenn's place. We went over to the mall and to a couple sporting goods stores to look at heavy bags. I'm looking for something to put in my garage to work out with for days when I don't feel like playing raquetball. Then it was time for D&D although we acutally played WhiteWolf.
Today I played raquetball for an hour and then cleaned up tried out Madden really quick and went into work at 1 PM. Another 2 hours of OT. My next check will have 16.5 hours of overtime. So far the check after that will have 4 hours but I'm sure I will have a little more.
School starts this week. I'm taking into to guitar (Weds) and then Survey of Children's Lit (online). So I guess I will have to do a lot of reading since I think it is a 9 week class... I read slow. I'm just hoping for a C or better. Don't really matter much. Hoping someday I might be able to write music to these lyrics I write up... Who knows.
On a final note I care more about her then I have cared for anyone for a long time. I just wish things were back like they were in early July. Everything was going so well then...
Optimism. I've always been one of those people that is an optimism on the outside but completely pessimistic on the inside. I start with high hopes about things and they slowly deteriate to. I tend to be a worrier. I start to think about things to much and it brings me down. I'm not like that all the time but when I'm unsure about things I tend to worry a lot. Like with the girl I've been seeing/dating/whatever it is right now. I think I bring on half the problems I've had with the relationship myself because I worry and think about things to much.
I'm trying to stay more optimistic. Even though I'm not presently optimistic I know if I see this through and wait it out that things will work out eventually. It's just I'm impatient because things were going so good and then we basically hit a brick wall and everything went to a standstill.
What a way to talk about optimism...
Anyway things are ok. I'm ok. Had a good weekend. Played 1 hour of raquetball on Friday, called her and gave to see how she was doing because she was upset about something the night before I just wanted to let her know that no matter what's going on between us on any other level that I'm always there for her as a friend first and that I hoped she knows she can talk to me if she's feelling down or just needs a friend. I kept it short since she was driving one her children back from the doctors. Then I went over to my moms work and visited. We talked about this grant that I helped them get and about how we are going to implement the computers they are getting from it. Should work out pretty well. Then I went out to Sushi for
snuffyfur. dipster and neonster and of course snuffs wife jennfurr was there and the twins. Then I went to the movies with my cousin and saw S.W.A.T. I liked it. It was entertaining and action packed.On Saturday I picked up Madden 2004 from
freshtastic73 and then went over to my friend Glenn's place. We went over to the mall and to a couple sporting goods stores to look at heavy bags. I'm looking for something to put in my garage to work out with for days when I don't feel like playing raquetball. Then it was time for D&D although we acutally played WhiteWolf.Today I played raquetball for an hour and then cleaned up tried out Madden really quick and went into work at 1 PM. Another 2 hours of OT. My next check will have 16.5 hours of overtime. So far the check after that will have 4 hours but I'm sure I will have a little more.
School starts this week. I'm taking into to guitar (Weds) and then Survey of Children's Lit (online). So I guess I will have to do a lot of reading since I think it is a 9 week class... I read slow. I'm just hoping for a C or better. Don't really matter much. Hoping someday I might be able to write music to these lyrics I write up... Who knows.
On a final note I care more about her then I have cared for anyone for a long time. I just wish things were back like they were in early July. Everything was going so well then...
